I guess I should have bad days more often. Today I have been feeling very blah and was seariously thinking about cancelling Shelby's PT but I went anyway and she had a great visit she got in the hammock swing to start with and then we put her in the walker and she did great she kicked the ball using both feet and then stepped her feet on the tread mill for about 10 minutes. I am so glad that I forced myself to get off my ass and go because when I do have to miss a session I feel guilty that she can't go because she needs it so much and it helps her so much.
I am so ready to have December behind me. Tomorrow is CJ's birthday he would have been 17 this year and for some reason I am having a hard time with it this year. I think part of it is that Nova's 1st birthday was the 2nd nd it's bringing back lots of old memories and feelings for me. I just miss CJ so much and my life has gotten so busy with taking care of the 4 I have here that I don't get a lot of time to let myself feel it or think about it but every year around Thanksgiving I start to get this blah feeling and ot sticks around until after March witch is when he died.
Don't get me wrong I love Christmas because I love watching my kids open their presents and see them get the things they wanted. I just hate the month of December and wish we could have Christmas without December. Now that's an idea I'm going to start celebrating Christmas and just ignore the month of December but something tells me that no matter how hard I try it won't work.
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