tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-323047942011-12-14T15:20:15.252-05:00Thoughts of a Southern GirlTrish_momof4http://www.blogger.com/profile/17500977071643873494noreply@blogger.comBlogger961100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32304794.post-50065916330602652732011-11-19T07:55:00.001-05:002011-11-19T08:14:33.384-05:00

So Thanksgiving is in a few days and I have invited my family to come here for dinner well it seems my mom is the only one that might come yeah I said might she still isn't sure and I have been telling them all I would host again this year since last year went well or at least I thought it did. I understand that Denise has a family dinner with her new guy but mom really hurts my feelings she

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Yet another day with this damn headache I'm starting to wonder if it will ever stop it's not as bad as yesterday just kind of a nagging pain at the moment but that could change at any moment. Thank goodness my husband got paid and since it's direct deposit we could access it this morning and that is a super good thing seeing as his truck ran out of gas when he got to the driveway last night.

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I have had a headache for 3 days and I know it's a combination of stress and this weather we have been having but if the stress doesn't calm down I'm never gonna get rid of this damn headache. As some of you know my son Justin who is 19 now moved back in with us and when he moved back in his cousin Daniel moved in also. Well things have been a lot harder since the boys moved in all the bills have

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It's Monday again and Ryan has a doctor's appointment at 1:00 for his ear. Shel didn't go to school today either cus she just can't keep her eyes open with all the seizure meds she is on it's kinda sad she is missing out on so much. I have got to get out of this funk. I am sick of feeling stressed and not being my happy-go-lucky self I totally hate feeling down in the dumps. Lets see some good

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I can not believe we are almost at thanksgiving it seems like yesterday we were celebrating new years. I am soooo not ready for the holidays I have not been in the mood for regular days much less holidays. Most days I'm just sick of having so many people in my house it would be good with me if it were back to Just Rod Shel Ryan and me. I love Justin don't get me wrong and Daniel isn't a bad kid

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Poor Ryan has another ear ache and the weird part is that he really didn't get that many ear aches as a baby or toddler and now 2 in a few weeks.Shelby's birthday is coming soon she will be 11 years old wow that is so hard to believe she is almost a teenager and it seems like yesterday she was a baby.

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It's cold this morning ugh. I really don't like the cold weather it makes me hurt. At least I'm not feeling like crying every other second today. I have no idea what was wrong with me yesterday it was one of those days where I just felt teary all day for no real reason. There was no school today which is good Shel is still sleeping she needs the rest. Kayla started her new job and seems to be

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Life is like this huge roller coaster the ups are scary but the downs can be totally terrifying I feel like I'm on a downward spiral most of the time and it sucks. I seem to never feel at peace and rarely get the chance to just sit with nothing major running through my brain. If it's not what is going on with Shel it's something with my husband or one of the other kids or what I'm going through

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I kinda got away from posting here for a long time I'm not quite sure why really I guess life just got the best of me. I made this blog so I'd have a place I could put my thoughts and feelings out here without feeling the need to edit myself so here goes...........Life has been just a bit crazy at my house these days. Justin moved back home a while back and his cousin Daniel moved in with us as

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Today is Nova's 2nd birthday and I know Erin and Scott are most likely not having a good day today. I can't believe it's been two years already I miss him so much he and Ryan were going to be best friends and grow up together. I wish with all my heart that he was still here. I love you Erin and Scott you are both in my thoughts {{{{{{{{Hugs}}}}}}}}} for the whole family. If you need me you know

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I am going to raffle off a hand made afghan (that I will make after the raffle in colors of your choice) The money made will go to the AHA for team Nova. It will be one entry for $3.00 or 2 for $5.00 go to paypal.com and send the money to erin@poeticacceptance.com and be sure to put "afghan raffle" in the note space. The raffle will run until Sept 7th.Here is the afghan design I will be using....

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BotoxSo far we've had no bad side effects YAY. The drooling has gotten much better already and it's been a week today. She has also decreased how often she bites her hands I have only noticed her bite once in two days and it used to be like 50 or 60 times a day that she would bite and this has me very excited I might be able to get rid of the gloves if she continues to do well YAY!!!! We go back

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Well let me see we have had a couple of good things that have happened. First Shelby has gotten used to the seizure meds and is doing great on them she is back to her old self and making progress again. I am thrilled she is doing so well. Her teachers have even noticed that she is doing better so I guess the seizures were effecting her more than normal.Now for the better news we went to the

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Very Special Arts FestivalIt was great she had a wonderful time and got to meet some really great kids that go to Piedmont high and seriously they were awesome with the kids that came out to enjoy the VSA. For anyone that doesn't know what the VSA is here is a little description. Piedmont raises money every year to help out special needs kids in Union County they hold an Art festival with some of

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We are on day 2 of the Keppra and so far so good she has not had any really bad side effects. She does get really sleepy about half an hour after I give it to her but that is to be expected.Rod are not on the best of terms right now. I have been getting active in a mom's group and he is not very happy about it. I guess he thinks he and the kids are all I should need in my life and just can't

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The MRI was pretty much what we expected she has damage due to the loss of oxygen she had at birth and it seems that there has been no new trauma to the brain witch is good. The bad news she has damage on both the left and right and he said that makes the possibility of a grand-mal more likely. We have gotten the diastat for emergency. The ambulatory EEG did show some seizures while Shelby was

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Shelby is doing okay we had the at home EEG last week and the MRI yesterday and we go back to the neuro on the 23rd. I have her MRI films here and yes I have looked at them but have no idea what they mean only that they don't look normal. They took a little longer than I was told to come back out and get us and I was starting to get panicky but trying hard to hide it. I was so relieved when they

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It has been a year.

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We saw the NeuroHe seems to think that she may only be having seizures when she is sick in witch case she wouldn't need meds everyday. He said that the EEG showed some sparks in the left side of her brain that are indicative of seizure activity and that she had a few spikes that are common with seizure activity. He said that he didn't want to start her on daily AED's without doing some further

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Going to the Neuro...Shelby's EEG definitely showed seizures well we finally go to the neuro on Wed. the 28th. I am very nervous but I'm trying to get everything in order for the appt. I have the time and dates of all the seizures we've seen, I have a list of her currant meds, I also have a list of the illness she has had recently. I am also trying to make a list of questions to ask while I'm

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Hurry up and waitI feel like that is my life right now. We had the EEG and then had to wait 2 weeks to get the results after they said it would only take a week. Now that we know that she is having seizures we are waiting for the doctor to call us with an appointment with the Neurologist. Meanwhile Shelby keeps getting sick with one thing or another and when she is sick she has more seizures and

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I have called the doctor every day this week to try to find out the results not knowing what I wanted to hear because I didn't want it to be yes she is having seizures but I knew that if it was a no that we were back at square one since an EEG only shows one block of time. Well Shelby's primary doctor has been out since Wed. so they had to get another doctor to read the results and sign off on

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My sweet boy I miss you.

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We had the EEGFinally and she did well during the test they got all the info they needed but she had to fast for the test so she had not eaten since around 6pm the night before and she just wouldn't stay awake long enough to eat. After we got home from the hospital so by that night she was so hungry she got sick and continued to puke for 24 hours after that. My poor little thing I had to just

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I am so frustrated right now. Shelby's doctor sent me to the wrong hospital we were supposed to be at Presby main and I was told to go to Presby Matthews so they send me home because they can't even do a sedation EEG in Matthews. So I go home to wait for someone to call with another appt. Well I go pick up Ryan and get home and the lady calls and she said the next available appt wasn't until

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Sickness and seizures:Shelby has been extremely sick latley. She was diagnosed with strep last Monday and given rocefrin injections so that she could return to school well at school on Tuesday the teacher called me and said that she may have had two seizures so I went stright there and took her to the doctor. The doctor has scheduled her for an EEG but they can't fit her in until the 21st. The

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We have moved finally and it is so different from where we used to live because we actually live in a neighborhood now and our "neighborhood" used to consist of 6 houses so I am having to get used to cars in and out all hours of the night. I am used to being able to leave my doors unlocked when we were home well not here. This house makes new noises that I am so not used to. I don't think I have

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He got Shelby's valium (it's in liquid form) and was chewing the label off and then he got the lid off because someone didn't put the lid on right, well it got all over his hands and I am not sure if he drank any of it or not. So I called his doctor and they said to call poison control witch I did right away. Well I had to call the pharmacy to see how much was originally in the bottle and the

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We finally found a house to move into and I am so siked it is a lot bigger than where we are right now and it will accommodate Shelby better than where we are now. I am getting a little excited but also a little anxious still. I am already thinking about what I'm going to put where. I am till worried about how Shelby is going to adjust to living in a new place hopefully she will adjust better

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There is nothing in the world like a best friend and mine is really the BEST. We talk daily and she listens to me gripe when I need to gripe. If I need help she is the first one to volunteer. When I am down she helps pick me up. She would never let me do anything that would hurt me or anyone else. She is just the best and I love her and just wanted her to know that even better I wanted the world

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I am so sick of looking for a house to rent we have seen about 30 places and for one reason or another none of them would work for us either the rent is outrageous or the renter rent's it just before we call or there isn't enough room for us or the renter says we have too many people for their property. Not to mention that we can't go through a realty company because my DH's credit is screwed. I

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Life in my world is never easy. We still haven't found a place to move to yet and I am really ready to just give up. I know I can't just give up but I feel beaten and battered from all the driving around and looking at this house and that house. I am also kind of sick of the landlords of these places looking at us like they are better than we are just because they own rental property. I am at the

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Here are some Christmas pics.My SIL Chrissy having fun with one of Ryan's toysThe back of Kayla's new coat.This is my step son Jeffrey and his Girlfriend Renee.Ryan in his mega blocks wagon.

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We took Shelby to be casted for her brace and she did a really good job. They used plaster and that stuff gets soooooooo hot she was red all over when they took it off and it took forever for her to get cooled down. She did squirm quite a bit but the cast came out good anyway. The orthatist wanted to make sure that we understood that bracing with a child like Shelby would not prevent surgery but

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It was the office visit from hell. We get there and before we go in Rod tells me that she is not having surgery period and I didn't say anything because I figure when he hears what the doctor has to say he might change his mind (there I go thinking again.) Well we do the paper work and finally get called and the nurse wants me to undress her and put her into a gown so I say OK and that is where

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Today is the day we meet with the specialist about Shelby's scoliosis and I am a bundle of nerves. I am so ready to get this over with. I have been so stressed lately that I have been snapping at my whole family and friends. I was kinda mean to a friend last night and still feel so bad about it. What is worse is that this is only the beginning of all this and there may be lots more stressful

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This is Kayla's drill team doing a drill sequence.Here is Kayla leading her group through the pass in review.Here is Kayla with her boyfriend Sean at the military ball on her birthday.Here are a couple of pics of Ryan trying desperatly to get away from Santa. Shelby and her wreath.Here are a few of Ryan and his "girlfriend"they are just sooooo cute together.

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I wish Shelby's appointment was today because I just can't stand the waiting. But I am also not ready to hear what the doctor has to say. I guess all in all I'm still quite freaked out about this whole thing. She is doing well though and has been doing some standing witch is a really good thing. She has also been very verbal lately and she has started blowing kisses (it is so cute) she used to

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Please join me in lighting a candel today to celebrate CJ's 17th birthday.Dear CJ, The three short months you were with me seem like a life time away now but I can still feel you near me at times. As hard as I try I just can't seem to move past the feelings of guilt even though I have been told a million times there was nothing I could have done to change things. I can't express how much

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I guess I should have bad days more often. Today I have been feeling very blah and was seariously thinking about cancelling Shelby's PT but I went anyway and she had a great visit she got in the hammock swing to start with and then we put her in the walker and she did great she kicked the ball using both feet and then stepped her feet on the tread mill for about 10 minutes. I am so glad that I

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Every morning we go through a crazy ritual of the older kids fighting the house getting destroyed and the younger ones usually end up cryingand this morning was no different.Kayla got all pissed off because she was told that since he room was a complete disaster again (she never cleans it up) that she could not stay after school for drill practice, and she got all pissed off and started taking it

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So christmas is on the way and we have this doctors visit about Shelby's scoliosis and low and behold we have to move. This month just completely sucks I guess the powers that be decided that I just don't have enough to do what with taking Shelby to and from school and having therapy 5 days a week now I have to pack up this house while looking for another house, getting all the christmas stuff

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We go see Dr Watenburger on Dec 20, 2006 to see what he has to say.You all know I have been doing a lot of research about this and quite frankly I have come to the conclusion that surgery is probably going to be her best bet.1st of all if we brace her her muscles will atrophy and cause more problems in the long run. If the whole idea of waiting is to let her get stronger and putting her into

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My Thanksgiving has been filled with family friends way too much food and a few tears. We went to my mother in laws first around 11:00 am and had a great meal. I enjoy talking to my husbands family as long as the visits are few and far between. I had to show them the x-ray of Shelby's spine and answer 100000 questions about what the doctor said and why he was sending her to someone else. I

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Well first the good news..... well sort of....... Her hips are fine but he said that if it hurts her to stand then don't make her stand. So I asked him how she would ever learn to walk if she never stands and he said "she won't" and that at this point with as low as her tone is that the chance of her walking is slim even with hers standing.Now for the bad news.... Her spine has gone from a 30

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Shelby went to her first Special Olympics event yesterday and she had a blast. I was so excited for her and all of her friends when they got so happy because they accomplished the task. I can't wait until we get to go again to another event. Here is a picture movie I made with the pics I took and some other pics I thought would be good to share.

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It's on Showtime on demand I had no idea they had this kind of stuff on there until Rod was looking through the different options on the on demand chanels and there it is. Granted it doesn't show nearly as much as true porn but it is still pretty graphic so I had to put a parental block on the chanel so that Justin can't watch it when we aren't home and trust me he'd watch it in a heart beat if

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Holidays and Family get togethers suck.....I really love being with my family for the holidays but....Every year we go to my dads for Thanksgiving on the Sunday before Thanksgiving and we always hold dinner at 2:00. Well this year Kayla is supposed to be in the Thanksgiving Parade on the same day as the dinner at dads and it starts at 2:00 and doesn't end until 4:30 so if I go to the parade I

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Well Shelby has Strep again and she has actually had a fever today and she doesn't usually get fevers. She has been super whiny today and I totally understand why. The doctor said he doesn't want to send her to a specialist yet though because they will want to remove her tonclles (sp) and he doesn't want her to be put to sleep he thinks her system is to compromised already so he gave her 1000 mg.

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Today we had Ryan's 1st birthday party and it went great we had lots of people there and better yet all the cake was eaten so I didn't have to bring any home. Ryan ate pizza and played with everyone and loved opening gifts. I had a really great time and I think everyone else did too. I can't believe he is one already. Just the thought of him being one makes me long for the infant he used to be.

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Well December 9th is fast approaching (that is CJ's birthday) and I have been so emotional lately and honestly I'm not sure I will stop being so emotional until after I get through March. I don't know why it is hitting me so much harder this year maybe it is all the other stress I have going on in my life now. I read a study the other day on CNN that says SIDS might be caused by a genetic

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Well Halloween is over and I had such a busy day that day I am still recovering. I woke at 6:00 am and got he kids ready to go to school then I went with another mom to a meeting and that went well over all; I went home and got a couple of things done here then I had to pick Kayla up from school and drop her at the dentist go pick Shelby up from school; go back and pick Kayla up from the dentist

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Halloween is fast approaching and the kids are ready to have fun Ryan will be a devil, Shelby a good witch, Justin scream, and Kayla a fairy. Kayla went to a masquerade party for JROTC last night and had a blast and like all teen came home liking a boy. She has hoped all day that he was going to call but he didn't so she has been a little upset but she will get over it.I have always loved taking

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Today started out okay Shelby did have one meltdown this morning when Rodney turned the tv to the news she is so used to her routine that if it changes in the least she freaks out so as soon as I put the tv back on HI-5 she was fine and ready to go to school.I gave Ryan some cheerio's this morning and when he was done sitting in his high chair I cleaned him up and put him back in the living room

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Well today I am going to meet some women I have been talking to about Shelby over the internet and I have to say I am a bit nervus about meeting them I know we are all friends and we have been talking for a while and I know it is stupid to be nervous but I can't help it.Shelby has been sick again with strep and Ryan has had an ear infection so I haven't posted much lately but they both are

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It is getting cold and the leaves are falling everyone is going to the mountains and here I sit all warm in my house not wanting to go out for any reason because I hate the cold. I am so ready for Halloween though I just love getting the kids all dressed up and take them out. Although my older kids don't really want to go with us anymore they would rather go out with their friends instead.I am

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Rodney has really made me mad He took the mechanic job witch was fine but he was looking for the bad side from day one and boy did he find it. The owner drinks on the job, promised him 1000.00 a week starting on Monday ok today is Friday and still no money well instead of cutting his losses and going somewhere else he keeps going back. He should be looking for another job he has a family to

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Okay this week just needs to be over now I have had enough of the kids being sick not only is it hell having to spend three days this week at the doctors office but they are all sooooo whiny and I can't stand the whining any more. I usually have patients that run deep but today I have just HAD ENOUGH it is time to stop the madness and get all these rug rats better before I loose my mind.

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Well it has been an interesting week to say the least Ryan fell on Tuesday and hit his head on Shelby's wheelchair and had to get 3 stitches (poor baby) The people at the doctors office were really great they took him back right away and got him taken care of. He had a headache for a while but it is heeling really well. Then on Wed. I ended up back at the doctors office with Shelby and Kayla they

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Well the guy finally called and Rod actually left for his first day on his new job and I am so glad I hope it lasts more than a few days I am so tired of him being home more than not. I love him don't get me wrong but damn there is such a thing as being together too much and we were at that point. Doesn't the saying go absence makes the heart grow fonder well if your never apart you start to hate

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This has been an emotional morning and boy the hits just keep coming. First of all when I took the kids to school this morning I picked up Kayla's friend Morgan so they would be together when they got there since a friend of theirs died on Friday and since I picked Morgan up I entered the school out by the big Rocks and they had made a memorial for the boy out on the rock and so the girls were

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Well Rod starts his new job tomorrow Woooo Hooooooo I am so glad he has decided to get a real. He worked for his dad for years and then his sister and her husband bought the business form his dad and they wouldn't pay him right so he quit and has been doing his own thing all year and money has never been what you would call steady so you can see why I am so excited. I hope he is happy in this job

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Well it has been a pretty quiet day we have been cleaning and my mother in law came over so she could see Ryan walk because he won't do it at her house lol. Then I got a call from Susan Shelby's PT she told me that Shelby got approved for PT twice a wek again WOOOO HOOOO!!!!!! We have been wanting this for a while because when we put Shelby in the walker we can't really get anything else done so

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I hope you can see these better.

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I have been making hats for the babies in the CVRU and I thought I'd share. These are just a few I have already given Erin about 20 hats of varying sizes and colors.

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I've got video of Ryan Walking it is pretty dark because I was using my camera but you can see him.

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The decision has been made he is taking the mechanic job and that is the job I wanted him to take he starts Monday and the guy gave him a list of stuff that needs to be done to this car and told him that if he can finish everything on the list by Friday of next week he will give him a $1000.00 bonus. I really hope he gets it done and he sure as hell is going to try but he is not sure if he can

Trish_momof4http://www.blogger.com/profile/17500977071643873494noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32304794.post-1158754520540586732006-09-20T08:06:00.000-04:002006-11-13T16:06:35.739-05:00

Now that I have more time I'll tell ya a little about the jobs. The superintendent job would require him to be on call 24/7 and he would have to do some traveling out of town but he would get a new truck and have steady income with benefits.The mechanic job is closer no travel more money benefits paid vacation and he likes mechanic work better than construction work (I see no down side)So I ask

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Rodney was offered not one but two jobs. The frst job is as a superintendant over construction jobs and the pay would be 40,000 a year and a truck. The other job is as a mehcanic making 800. a week to start and if he likes it then he will start getting commision on every job he does and the guy said his last helper made 120,000 last year plus it is close to the house. So now he just has to decide

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Your Pirate Name Is...Iron FirecrotchWhat's Your Pirate Name?

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Why do babies have to put everything in their mouths? Last night Ryan found something on the floor and put it in his mouth well he started gagging and then puked and was still gagging by this time Rodneyhad gotten to him and I was almost there, well Rod took him to the sink and started trying to get whatever was in his mouth out and finally out it came. What was it you ask? It was a penny. It had

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You Are SunshineSoothing and calmYou are often held up by others as the idealBut too much of you, and they'll get burnedYou are best known for: your warmth Your dominant state: connectingWhat Type of Weather Are You?

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I got the pictures today to start Nova's scrapbook for my best friend Erin and it was very hard to look at the pics. I really want to create something that she will love and I am so afraid I'm going to let her down. I have never made a scrapbook before and I really don't want to screw this up. The heart walk is tomorrow morning and I am sure she is all wound up because this has been her main

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I donated a blanket to my friend Erin to raffle off to raise money for the CHD heart walk in Sept. If you would like to you can read the story and enter the raffle for the blanket you can also check back to see how many people have entered and what the pot is up to.The winner of Ryan's blanket was Joyce and she is so sweet that after she won the blanket she said she wanted me to keep it because

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My mom and I had a long talk the other day about her will (her subject not mine) she was telling me yet again how it will be set up and what not and I finally told her how the grandkids felt about how almost everything that ment anything to her is going to one specific grand kid and their feelings were hurt. She acted like she just didn't understand so I told her that years ago when she "gave

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Last night Ryan decided he wanted to wear Shelby's skort ON HIS HEAD!!

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The Secret To Shelby Grace,I will never forget the morning the neurologist came into the NICU and told me “Shelby has suffered a lack of oxygen to the brain and has hypoxic eschmic encephalopothy (HIE.) I wasn’t aware I was holding my breath with tears streaming down my face waiting for him to explain. In that moment before he spoke again I saw flashes of a beautiful baby girl doing all her

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I can tell you that I was sitting on the floor of my living room holding Shelby who was almost 1 and still more like an infant because of her cerebral palsy. I was watching the TV in horror clinging all the tighter to my baby wishing my other kids weren't in school (and yes I went and picked them up early) I cried while watching the live feeds and I have to admit I got to a point where I had to

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This is how Ryan went to sleep for nap time today.

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I have tried to e-mail and call the gut that is supposed to be the head of the Special Olympics in our area and he still hasn't gotten back to me yet! I am starting to think I am going to have to be a real thorn in his side to get him to acknowledge me at all and you would think he would be grateful for someone asking what they can do to help instead of having to guilt people into helping when

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After I got the kids in bed and I tried to go to sleep myself My stupid brain wouldn't shut up and it was after 1:00am before I was finally able to doze off. Shelby woke me back up at 3:00am and Ryan got me up again around 4 so needless to say I didn't get much sleep at all!Now one of the things that kept me up was this letter Justin got from a girl at school. She was calling him every name in

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Earlier today Kayla dumped Ryan’s clothes in a laundry basket so I could go through them and take out what he can’t wear anymore. Later on Ryan was playing in the floor and picked something up and put it in his mouth when Rodney took it away from him we saw that it was a pellet of rat poison. Well I called the doctor’s office and talked first to poison control and then talked to a nurse and both

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Well today is Shelby’s first day of school and I had intended on staying at least for a little while but when I got there she was sooo happy about being there and the teachers said they didn’t need me to stay so reluctantly I left and as I pulled out of the parking lot I called Erin so I wouldn’t feel so alone on my ride home. I felt like an idiot riding down the road with tears streaming down my

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So Shelby starts school on Monday and I am not sure I am going to handle it so well but after going to the open house I am pretty sure she is ready to start. She is just so social and loves to be in school she was one of the most popular kids in preschool witch meant she was never without playmate on the playground but by the same token sometimes it kept her from getting to play because if she

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Well I finally got to clean without somebody coming right behind me to mess up witch was great. Kayla and Justin both had a great day and of course now that they have been home for a few hours I have been given my homework and heard the same stories a thousand times at least isn't it great having teens. I still can't believe they are old enough to both be in high school and I am still getting

Trish_momof4http://www.blogger.com/profile/17500977071643873494noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32304794.post-1156361118901446992006-08-23T15:18:00.000-04:002006-11-13T16:06:31.126-05:00

Okay I have now humiliated both of my older kids. I bet he never dreamed I'd put this on the web lol.

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Kayla dyed her hair black about six months ago but didn't keep the roots done and now she wants to go back blond so I got the dye and we came home and put it on her hair then we waited anxiously for the 35 minutes and this is what she got.......

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She did much better on Friday I think having both the PT and the OT there is more than she can handle. She also starts school on Monday Aug. 28, then she is off until Sept 1, . She has open house on the 25th just for her class and the other kid that will be there for her first day is Allison that she already knows from preschool so that should make the transition a little easier for both of them.

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Okay this is the situation Shelby will be able to join the Special Olympics this year and so I went to the web site to find out who is in charge and how I might be able to help with up coming events and guess what they DON'T HAVE ANYTHING ON THE SCHEDULE!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am soooo pissed because it looks like they are planning on waiting until the last minute again well I am not going to let them I

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Okay this is the situation Shelby will be able to join the Special Olympics this year and so I went to the web site to find out who is in charge and how I might be able to help with up coming events and guess what they don't have ANYTHING ON THE SCHEDULE!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am soooo pissed because it looks like they are planning on waiting until the last minute again well I am not going to let them I

Trish_momof4http://www.blogger.com/profile/17500977071643873494noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32304794.post-1155484225233800372006-08-13T11:21:00.000-04:002006-11-13T16:06:30.339-05:00

She didn't really want to work at all this past week and wouldn't participate like she usually does but I finally remembered to bring the camera so I got some pics of her in the walker we use while were there she usually will make stepping motions and has even moved it bakwards a few times but Friday she just wasn't into it and only did a very little bit I think she was just having an off week

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DH got up yesterday morning and woke everybody up at 7:00am for no reason and boy did it piss me off because I had been up with the baby several times and the only person that was awake was DH so I could have slept in but he wanted to be an ass. Then at 11:30 Shelby's speech therapist came and Shelby wouldn't let her do anything with her soI had to do most of the stuff while the ST watched.

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It went well he had his finger pricked and didn't cry but he did bleed like hell he weighs 16lbs 14oz and is 27 in tall. He is developmentally doing great he still has the heart murmmer and is getting two new teeth. He got his polio vaccine and only cried for a minute and talked to the ladies that make appts when we were leaving yes he is already a ladies man god help me now.

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My name is Trish and I am not a great writer hell I'm not even a good one. It seems that the only thing I am good at is being a mom, I have 4 kids and 4 angles. 3 of my angles were due to miscarriage and 16 years ago I lost my son CJ to SIDS when he was 3 months old.Kayla is my oldest she is 18 and a senior in high school she wants to join the Air Force when she graduates and she is the single

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